we are invisible

alksjflkdjafhds IT SUCKS!
That those who went out to the state capitol in demonstration of the child kidnappings that are going on in Uganda and the neighboring areas have not been rescued. they are out there waiting for a public figure in government or film or culture to go take a stand with them, lending their voice for the cause in Uganda/'rescuing them' from the capitol lawn were we were symbolically abducted to yesterday at 3pm.

More than 800 showed up to take a stand for justice
we wrote letters to our senators
we called news stations
i slept under an umbrella as it rained throughout the night
we called cnn
again and agian
we annoyed cnn
but they annoyed us as well
we touched the heart of maya angelou
but no one came
no one rescued us

no one cares

help! in need of rescue

It breaks my heart to know that our children are being abducted --and we dont even realize it
the cries and weeps of mothers are going unheard
we dont even realize what is going on &we feel as though we cant help them
but we can
because We The People
have the power
to ask our government --plead with our elected leaders
to do something
&it was for this purpose that we gave them these powers

the babes from which praise should ring are being ripped from their homes
TERRORIZED
and forced to commit horrendous crimes
&murder or be murdered
NO CHILD OF 9YRS SHOULD HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT
NO SON OR DAUGHTER
NO TEENAGER
NO HUMAN BEING
no No NO!

Know what is going on in northern Uganda & now the Congo
know about the children the world can not see being forced to be a part of the rebel army
know of how they suffer
KNOW THERE IS HOPE

we can not stand by and allow these kind of things to happen
in what circumstance is something like this ever ok
ok to kill
ok to abduct children and terrorize them into killing machines

ok to turn a blind eye toward
ok to not do something

alsdgfjkdjsfljskflkdmcHELP!

Americana exotica

My chest continues to feel as though some hideous winged beast flutters within.

yesterday the nervous and anxiety for one of my projects, a socratic discussion on evolution, could have killed me i was so nervous and worried about it.
it went well, very well. i dont know how good my written portion was but as i was walking out of class my professor yelled out 'good job miss. ovalle' soo that made me feel better
&then wed. i was nervous about my artt lesson plan presentation
most of my nervous stem from procrastinating and not knowing if im going to have the work done on time
but yea
that feeling still lingers though at times
the nervousness
its just not as big anymore
before it felt like i would throw up a small bird LOL
now maybe something a bit smaller
like Americana exotica
or a monarch

but yea good thing school is almost over
not really, i have sooo much work these next 2wks that im not even thinking about finals b/c these weeks are so BIG and important to me that finals seem small and tiny
so i cant enjoy the fact that im almost done with this semester

ill also be doing both summer schools
so ill be in SM and not SA for the most part
that sucks cause i wont get to see my SA friends much
or even less than i already was
we'll see
maybe ill go back to SA for the month of may

p.s. i really need to go to the McNay art museum in SA for my art class....

Day 111-09

i have good bestfriends
a good roommate
she lets me stay up late on my laptop while she tries to sleep
makes me veggie food and shares her tea

next year will be goood too

&ill have my car
& school is going to get soo good
im getting so excited about being a teacher, it will be soo soon
ill even be a better student next year

I want to see big things, be in prayer for BIG things. I want to see God tear up this place, this city. To have it truly shine atop this hill we lay on. I want to see us worship on this mount, to believe these things are possible. to believe in our God. to be alive &&thrive not just survive.

today was a good day
my backpack felt good
today i wore shorts it was soo hott
classes went well
i didnt go back to work after lab
dinner was goood &fun --we'll nail the rice next time
my artt proj. wasnt too bad, idk im not really done with it
but i am far too tired
i shall take a nap
farewell vast empty space to which i tell my daily thoughts
blackhole of a dairy
uninhabited and deserted sweet dessert of mine
o! that rhymes

shh

my eric carle is in the art gallery

random

i hope my feet feel better tomorrow
i ran them raw today
i was going to be late to my theater class so i ran all the way from art --barefoot
b/c i could run faster with out my sandles
all was fine till class let out and i felt as though i couldnt walk!
my feet hurt soo bad and i needed to go to the Cru office to get stuff for outreach --to which only one person showed up
--im thankful for them but yea...
so yea, feet hurt
blisters on the souls of my feet -on my toes :(

proverbs 24:26 (esv)

i'll tell you a secret:
it was the greatest lie id ever heard,
next to 'surely you wont die.'
a truly romantic tragedy.

caged bird

an untitled something

i get so frustrated and jealous, not in a terrible way --if there even is such a thing. this is constant non stop from here to there and back again then past all this &left it behind just to return. I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP, THROW IN THE TOWEL & SUBMIT TO GOD --BUT I DONT KNOW HOW.
why does desire have such great strength, and the will is so weak; how is it that one can subdue the heart? what does it take, the mind? i think ive tried that. .......................I dont want to, i dont want to....................i like my mosquito bites
. . .
its not the mind. its not the body --i dont have that strength. it is God. It takes God. &maybe submission and that is the hardest of all.
we all like our mud holes,[blue tilapia] just lil babies playing in slums making mud pies
Oh God! let ours eyes arise and be pleased by holidays at your seas[cs lewis].


fyi: sometimes i start these posts and get distracted by prayer, sleep, fb or food and dont publish them or decide not to b/c id prefer my privacy. but sometimes i come back weeks later or days and decide to post them after all and finish off any last thoughts.
thank you & good day