missing: gold coins

so i totally accidentally deleted a post/blog i liked
the Love Shall Drive out Fear or something like that...
lame

when i grow up... I wana be a woman

i just hope
im becoming the woman he deserves.
the woman my husband needs.
The woman God intended me to be
all along from the very beginning,
When he spoke things into being.
because the question is not to be or not to be
but am i
be
ing
am i
be
coming,
loving.

day 129-09

the sheets still smell like my sister
ive lost my sister and gained a horrible horrible man
i know young boys greater men than he
and a beautiful soul will have to be born into this mess
God save us all

secret

i fear expressing myself

sometimes b/c i feel it will be taken as a cry for attention
sometimes b/c i think ppl will think im stupid.
they will think how ever could you have thought that,
heck no i dont like you,
i dont like her anymore &dont want to be friends w/her
shes so weird

Claude Monet

Go on
&speak those words,
you know the ones.
Answer all her questions,
the ones fear does not utter.
worry not about awkwardness for it lives not in the company of truth
&honesty will paint reality,
& it shall be a beautiful picture.